hey!!!

my god been sooo long since i updated my journal, since the school year is drawing to a close, i had to focus if i was missing anything or was on track for graduation and everything else. i will recount my last days for school, embellishing the most important points and and the thoughts and feelings i had along the way.

a few months before i committed myself into running for prom king. partly encouraged by friends and the other part motivated to be noticed.
at first i had a rather nice momentum going on, i learned that talking to people are much easier than i thought, but i started to sloww down because of some problems i had with grades.

then i started to look for possible dates to go with to prom. i first wanted to go with a group like L.C.(a popular clique), but many already had reserved seats with all their friends. there was no way i could fit in and all the girls were already taken, three rejected me.

the night before prom, i decided to help out with decorations and stuff. it took the entire night and morning. i was exhausted and was very grateful for gertrude to pick me up (gertrude is one of my class officers, i don't know how to drive still).

i was amazed at how well the preperations went the day of prom. Solomon (class treasurer) decided to remove my reserved seat, because the other people wanted me out, i was able to pick out another seat near L.C., and i was rather happy, but Solomon said that there might be people sitting there, so he sent me to the non-reserved table, by myself, all the way to the back! if i was going to sit in the non-reserves then i shouldn't have paid four dollars of reservations (i paid an extra two dollars for my supposed date). such a waste

the rest of the night was okay, the food was mediocre and the entertainment was mediocre at best. the thing that ruined my night was the crowning of prom king, as you might know already, i lost. i sunk to my chair in disappointment. some friends came by me to cheer me up, i was very happy for that. but it just destroyed my will to enjoy the rest of the night. i kept making excuses such as being tired caused by the decorating the night before. i seriously did not want to be sulking but did anyway. i went home and tried drinking m sarrows away but tequila was a vile drink, i wasted a whole cup full.



fast forwarding to May 23, it was the last day of school and everyone was hectecly trying to finish loose ends, i retook a whole bunch of tests to bump up my grade. then i went to do the countdown (counting down the end of school) it was okay, people were hyped,every one was out in the sun and i enjoyed it alittle. one of my friends blew up a condom and tied it to a balloon, it was hilarious when they released it into the air.

i was excited not only because school ended but because i was invited (for the first time, i'm never invited to anything)to go with a couple friends, all i needed to do was wait for Sherwin to pick me up. i got all dressed and prepared. i waited for him, then waited for him, then waited for him some more, he never came. i stayed up waiting until past midnight. i just felt terrible after that.

after, i attended the graduation practices, it was hard doing it under the hot sun and on the blazing concrete bleechers.

i also went to the bacculearate mass practice, i felt so left out, i just stood out there in the corner. everyone was mingling with everyone else, they took pictures of themselves. komika tried cheering me up, i was at the very least thankful of that.

the mass was very boring, like any other church service. i was actually uncomfortable to be in the church with a whole bunch ofpeople i know. i try seperating religion from social.

right after mass, i went to a senior luncheon to recieve an award, just like at church i did not feel very fitting. the free buffet food brightened me up a bit (because i always binge on food when i feel bad).
the room became very noisy when the awards were being given out, when i recieved mine (a distinguished art certificate)no one really cheered for me. and no one wanted to take my picture, Mr. Labrador and i waited a while for anyone to take pictures, reluctantly a girl just stood up and took a quick pic so i can sit back down. again i felt terrible.

i wanted to leave immediately after that, but i couldn't contact my sister until i used up all my quarters. once again thanks to gertrude she arranged a ride for me.

the day before graduation, there was an all day graduation rehearsal, it was exhausting going over the routine. tensions mounted as people got irritated by the repeated practices. i saw krystal passing out some invitationals to a party, i wanted to go. a few times she past by handing them out, i thought i was getting one because i thought krystal and i were good friends, or at least during ninth grade. i was determined to go out with people, by god this is my last summer with them and i'm going to go somewhere. i confronted d'leoleigh (one of the hostesses of krystal's party)about it, i hated to ask about it, asking for an invitation is completely different than recieving one. what surprised me was that she said i had an invitation already lined up for me, but why i never got it, i will never know.

GRADUATION DAY!!!

again i sat around by myself but i wasn't sulking much, i was more happier than usual. we rehearsed one final time before the start of the ceremony, i was more finicky, i looked around quickly for a place to stash my bag, i worried about how my gown looked and how my cap is positioned we waited outside for a long time, i was sweating big timw under my gown.

when we actually started, it was a cake walk. barely any problems getting to my seat. the introductions and speeches were a bit long winded, but getting my diploma more than made up for that. the audience were amazed at how well made the ceremony was, we had a strobe and lazer light show (first school to do that!), smoke fountains and a balloon with confetti drop!

i felt so happy, i tried to contain my emotions. graduation day is the only day when i could talk to and actually hug people whom i was always been intimidated by such as deanna, verna, marg and genevieve! i would normally never dare speak to them because of how they are so much better than me!

somehow all my past problems seemed to have melted away! for the time being at least.

hello cyber world!

not much happening on my end of the line.

just learning flash and going to school.

been to several school carwashes to raise money for prom and graduation, yet still very short on how much we ought to have


a while ago i won an art contest along with 200 dollars worth of gift certificates like a scuba trip.

they had my stuff on the cover of a chamorro lunar calender.

i still scratch my head over why the hell i won. i mean it was uber crappy, i worked on it the day before thee deadline so i was like scrambling on it.

however, i liked it when they announced the news right in front of my class so they were all praising me.

if you want, though i don't know why you would, you can download the lunar calender at the western pacific fishery council website.


winning that contest encouraged me to join another contest for a hundred dollar cash, yea it's small but it's more than enough.

i was also chosen for the congressional art contest.

and i will see if i can also join the doodle for google contest also.

man, if i win all three, bit too optimistic, i could be known through out the school!

any way bye

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!!


how's it going?

for me hell in school

i don't have anything to submit right now
i've been working like crazy on flash
trying to learn the basics an advanced techniques at the same time.

sooo...

yea, nothing but the same old B.S.

shoot!

hello people out there,

i'm putting up this journal just for the sake of updating

anyway things that are happening for me... i am searching for a college and a full ride scholarship

things are moving too fast!!!

my grades are going down the drain, especially in english and japanese class. man! i shouldn't even be failing those classes

speaking of japanese, we just had a japanese exchage. i was so excited and i primped myself up very well, but turns out that i had gotten a guy.
that ruined the whole experiance, not to be shallow but the guy had a dead face and seemed unimpressed with anything i do! i swear him and his friends were making fun of me along with others, i don't know about what, maybe how i looked or how i got stuck with a guy.

i shouldn't have stood first in line! may be second or thrid would have done it, cuz it was nothing but girls! cute ones even!




when i gave him his gifts, not a shred of reaction to it, all he said is "oh", i gave him a nice pillow and a toy car, he gives me a flimsy, 99 yen fan. i hate myself, everyone had a great time but me.

however there is a little bright side for this. he spoke and understood enough english to put my japanese to a minimum.

as very few of you guys know, my life is conflicted with work so yeah i'm stalling out my submissions for a while.

this year i had to transfer to a another school farther away, because my old one was considered a "hazard and unfit for student learning". can't believe the crap, now i have to share a campus late in the day and come home too tired to do homework given. of coarse there are the chores that i do and do alone (sisters got great "excuses") it seems never ending.

in light of the situation, i got a cool teacher who organizes snorkeling field trips and is bearable in class. in dark of the situation, my team members never showed up in the trips so i couldn't go out to the reef, no one wanted to be my partner also. i just sat at the shore and waded in the shallows, i don't blame them, it's not like the first time this happened. (TxT)

i'm looking for a way i can get to college in the u.s.

my parents are planning to send me to the philippines, but i can't stand it there. the pollution, strangers and noise is just too much

PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME!!!!


on a lighter note:
YAY!!! my minimalism piece got featured!

once i get in the mood to draw or have time to draw i'll put a little sumthin sumthin fo' ya